
Signs of Samhain

There's a little life in us yet...
Trying to steer my choices for health and wellness back on course, as they always seem to veer off track, never proves easy for me. Remember to take my vitamins, eat less junk and more whole foods, and get back into regular yoga, which always make me feel better. I think when Autumn rolls around every year it is always a contemplative season for me. I start to think about my life, and the person I’ve become, and where I’m going. Sometimes, I think too much and worry myself to the edge of a proverbial cliff, only to try and back myself away from the edge. The more calm I can choose to be, the better I can get through daily life, and the better I treat the people around me.
I have a lot going on, both mentally, and in my daily life, and I’m not always good at balancing everything. I realized yesterday, while I was at home in a bit of a funk, and trying to move out from it, that I’m no longer a “if a end up do this” kind of person. No “shh you’ll jinx it” mentallity. It’s now “when I do this”. No room for failure.
It’s now “When I move to London…”. It will happen. Maybe not in the way I’d prefer, or in my given time frame, but I will make it happen. Instead of looking as possible rejection from graduate school the first time around as a crushing blow to my life plans, I’m trying to view it as a small delay in a larger movement that I’m making in my life. I have a desire to start a life there, to build something of value. I’m normally not a person who counts on other people, or who makes plans around them, but in this case, I want to. When I think about life, it’s only enhanced and made more full by having someone to share it with. I feel extremely lucky, and best of all, no longer paralyzed by the fear of being left, or being alone. I know I can handle those things, if they should happen. I’m glad I can finally enjoy being part of a relationship. The distance may be frustrating for now, but I believe we can survive it and continue to grow, together. If I could only have a little bit more of his patience, that would be nice.
Posted in College, Liminality | Leave a Comment »
Today I went in search of the original Twinnings Tea Shop. I wandered down the Strand, and back up, confused by the numbering on the buildings. I wandered back down, only to find the shop completely under construction. Extremely bummed out, I stopped in a Whittard of Chelsea, and picked up 2 packets of tea, but they didn’t really have anything I drooled over. I wandered off the very beaten path a little bit, and found a Satya jewelry boutique at the edge of Covent Garden that just opened two weeks ago. In need of retail therapy to nurse my lack-of-Twinnings woes, I bought myself a beautiful necklace and bracelet.
Now to pop off to the movie theatre and see District 9 for the second time. Today is the UK release and Guy can’t wait to see it.
Posted in London, Travel | Leave a Comment »

View from the Arc de Triomphe
After spending three days and two nights in Paris, I’ve come away with mixed emotions, but a beautiful memory none-the-less. Paris is at once, dirty, smelly, crowded, and crazy, but it is also beautiful, full of life, and can be quiet, personable, and deeply intimate. During our stay we lodged in Montmartre at the edge of the red light district. Our hotel was clean and comfortable, and the night time noise was quickly squashed with a pair of earplugs.
Our first morning we ventured up a steep side road to the base of the Sacre Coeur. I sat at the bottom of the stairs in awe at how large everything seemed. The cathedral itself was beautiful, and the singing of the nuns just helped bolster the sense of wonder I felt as we walked through. So many references and symbols carved into the building, it was hard to comprehend that someone had carved every single detail. The view from atop the hill that Sacre Coeur sits on is a nice display of the layout on that side of the city. After our trek down the front stairs of Cathedral, we grabbed lunch at a café close to our restaurant. My advice concerning Sacre Coeur, for anyone who had never been before, is avoid going up or down the front stairs. Not only are there hundreds of them, but there are also hundreds of extremely pushy gypsies and immigrant men who are not afraid to ask for your money and corner you to get it. Guy and I got corner and split by a group of these men, and after one of them poked him in the chest and tried to stop him from walking, I freaked out, grabbed his arm, pulled him towards me and yelled Arrêt! The man cornering him found this amusing, and called me “Big Mamma”. Damn right.
We went to the Arc de Triomphe later, which was such a powerful monument, and we climbed the narrow spiral staircase all the way to the top. I thought my lungs might explode out of my chest and my legs might fall off, but it was worth it, because the view of all sides of Paris was just breathtaking. After coming down all those stairs, we took a walk on the Champs-Élysées and popped into a Monoprix and the giant Sephora, which was an experience unto itself.
That evening we met up with Katia & Kyliemac and some of their friends out to celebrate Kylie’s birthday. I’ve been an ardent listener of their podcasts for a few years now, and had always wanted to meet them. We started at a Scottish pub and moved on to a Dutch bar where we finished out the evening. Those ladies are two of the nicest women I have met, and were so welcoming and kind. It was a fantastic evening out getting to spend time with the both of them, and I know the next time I come visit Paris seeing them again will be top on my list. Everyone go check out their awesome podcasts and website at the above link.
Our second day in Paris was spent at the Palace of Versailles. Instead of going into the Palace, we chose to wander through some of the main gardens, and then explore the structures Marie-Antoinette had built for herself off the right side of the gardens, the Petit Trianon and the surrounding follies. I’m really pleased that we chose to avoid the main palace and look at some of the smaller more intimate structures. There was a small English style village, and a little farm with animals, the giant geese and a huge St. Bernard puppy being my favorites. We enjoyed lunch by one of the larger lakes at the back of the gardens, and fed the ducks and giant carp scraps of bread.
The last day we wandered through Montmarte and saw some of the windmills still up on the sides of buildings. There was also a really fascinating exhibition of Dali sculpture, and a small market full of artists. On our way down from the Dali exhibit we popped in a small natural skincare botique that carries a niche line of perfumes I’d been dying to try, and Next on the list was the Centre Pompidou, which had a really interesting exhibition on feminist art and women in art. They have a really lovely collection, and I got to see some Magritte and Tamara de Lempicka up close. The building itself offers a fantastic view of the city from the top floors. After soaking up all that art, we went to Notre Dame, and took a walking through the inside, but didn’t go up. On our way into the square we got granitas from a street vendor and passed a very ironic café called Quasimodo. Later, we visited the outside of the Louvre and sat down at one of the larger fountains, taking the opportunity to dip our sore, tired feet in the fountain along with the other Parisians and tourists. That was probably the best part of the day, to be honest, just the change to lay out in the sun and relax and not feel like we had anything pressing to do. After a nice long sit next to the fountain, we wandered down through the park across the street from the Louvre, and down to the start of the shops near the Champs-Élyées. By the point it was time to head off to the train station and catch the Eurostar home.
Posted in Travel | Leave a Comment »
My flight into Heathrow was long, but tolerable. After a quick nap and a shower, I felt a lot better. I tend to get plane sick, so my appetite was shot for most of the afternoon. G’s parents came around and stayed for a cup of tea as well. It was really lovely seeing them, and so sweet that they made the time to stop and see me. We made plans to meet up again next week, once they come back from France.
For dinner, we went to a small Japanese restaurant and had some sushi. An eel and cucumber roll, and a tuna hand roll for myself, while G had a fermented bean roll, fried tofu, and a seaweed rice ball that was excellent. After dinner we swung by this cute Thai grocery called Thai Smile, and got some junk food. Sesame mochi and some sort of corn nuts. We popped by his tattoo parlour since it was just a bit up the road, and on a lucky chance his artist was there, so I got to meet her. We hung around and chatted with the owner and her for a bit, and then headed home.
The rest of the evening involved sitting on the couch and watching bad tv. It’s the little pleasures in life, my friends.
Now, I’m by myself for most of the day while he’s at work, and I should probably get out of my pajamas and go to Boots to pick up the rest of the stuff I forgot to pack. I’m a little nervous about getting lost on the tube, but being that everything is labeled within an inch of it’s life(which I love), I am sure I’ll be fine. Time for some adventures!
Posted in London, Travel | 1 Comment »

The Oval facing West
The ennui has set in. My desire to put forth effort with everything from doing the dishes to writing papers has dwindled. Only a month left until I go back to London, and I can breathe and relax. and read large amounts of non-academic books.
As much as I love learning new things and being in school, the two intense 5 week term linguistics based math classes I just finished, sucked up all the gumption I had. I need a break from college life for a little bit.
This is the view from the penthouse reading room in the library on campus. The newly renovated building quietly opens to the public on Monday. I have relished being able to explore its nooks and crannies without interruption.
I am also looking forward to our visit to Paris, as I never thought I would see the city as this young of an age. I had always planned on going, but to explore it with someone who means so much to me makes it more…magical, I suppose. I can’t thank him enough for all of his support and love. I plan on taking lots of photos and video, and really documenting the time we spend together in the City of Lights
Posted in College, Liminality | Leave a Comment »
“I’m not asking you
to promise you’ll never leave,
I just want you to tell me
that you want to stay here too.”
Posted in Poetry | Leave a Comment »
Posted in Eyes Wide Open | Leave a Comment »
That day you held me
On the platform, still and close
My heart leapt for joy
You smelled of sweet coconut
As I leaned in to kiss you
Posted in Love, Poetry | Tagged tanka | Leave a Comment »