I'm told, by many expats, that this is perfectly normal. That after 3-4 months things stop being shiny and new, and you exit the honeymoon period, and everything about daily life can seem incredibly difficult and frustrating. Well folks, I am there. I am knee deep in it.

You think it will be the big differences, but in someways those things are much easier to handle. However, going to the post office, or buying groceries, and sometimes just leaving the house feels like a monumental fight. I know in a few months time it will feel better, but right now, it is increcibly hard.

I in no way think I made the wrong choice coming to the UK, but even after all my visits and time here over the past 2 years, I still had no idea what exactly I was getting myself into.

All that aside, the new term of classes seems immensly more enjoyable than the last, and even the coursework doesn't seem so frustrating, although I may be prematurely optimistic about that.

I think I need to reinvest myself in finding things to love about London, and try to focus more on what makes living in this city so amazing. and spend less time focusing on why I'm homesick or fed up with the way certain things are done here.

and after all that, I turn 25 next weekend. so maybe I'm just prepping for my quarter life crisis, where I second guess all the major decisions I've made in life until this point, and beat myself up over not being perfect. Because if I am good at anything, it's beating myself up over nothing.